Tuesday, November 3, 2009

一杯茶,一个人...

终于再次承受不着压力,再次独自一个人去喝茶...
虽然一个人喝茶淡然无味,但终比呆在家承受压力好很多..

又失去胃口了,所以为了证明我没事,我还是叫了一碟椰江饭..但很好笑,老板说,江鱼仔完了..所以,椰江饭也只能是椰饭..

一口接着一口,很快的就吃完了,虽然没什么感觉,但我很高心,至少没有辜负某些人吧...

闪着电,打着雷, 我刚好坐在树下,一点也不畏惧,因为.......

看来是时候解密了..

月亮,相信大家都很熟悉这个名字也了解她对我的重要性。
换句话说,我并不孤独..
虽然喜欢一个人走,但周围是否有人留意到月亮一直普照着我??
她的祝福
她的鼓励
她的照顾
是我唯一咬紧牙根,继续走下去...

虽然我知道在现实生活中这些是没可能发生的,
但至少我还可以骗自己好让我有一个继续走下去的尊严 与勇气..
她是我背后的推动力,
默默的支持我...

刚才打雷闪电,我又坐在树下,我毫无畏惧,就是这个原因,因为闪闪的月光照着我...

可惜,为何就是有人要破坏我这么一点点的幻想,为什么就是要打击我...
难道我这一身就注定死在你手??
没可能...

以前,月亮是一个名词,现在也只能是代词了...

淡淡的茶就像是一杯白开水,清清的,淡淡的..走了...

And again..

This time..
Thanks to ms LEE, my management lecturer..
I don't know what makes her becomes so strict.
I was having 4 hours lecture non-stop with only 3 minutes..
And there were few stupid idiot fcking fella making noise behind the lecture,
Ms LEE was damn pissed and scolded all of us.. This is really Fcking unfair!!!!

Thus, the consequences are, she will not explain all the slides and asked us to study by our own.. Meanwhile, I am currently headache with my assignment because it is extremely difficult..

Right after 12, I bought a piece of bread and rushed to library to comlete my assignment until 5pm.. I was just so stressed until I don't feel like talking or taking any foods.. This is Fcking crazy and I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, October 30, 2009

Quit le....

Finally, an iron man cannot withstand with the pressure..
And the tears finally dropped when I was chatting with moon this early morning..

Actually last night when I was chatting with eliza,
I roughly know what should I do for next le..

As what I had mentioned earlier, strength point turned into weakness point..

What moon had told me is actually almost the same as what eliza told me...
AFter taking several considerations, I promised myself that after i solve the problem, and I will quit le...

I just can't withstand with it anymore and i am totally suffering...

Will give myself a deep rest....

Thursday, October 29, 2009

3.30am

3.30 am right now, most people are having their sweet dreams right now except me..

God had given me a signal that something went wrong and woke me up at 3.30am..
Yeah, thanks god for waking me up, so far I am still thinking the soltuion, hopefully by 6am I could get it after I go out to walk around later although it is freaky cold outside right now..

Turning point??
Strength turned into weakness point??

Sometimes you might not accept the judgement or the opinions from others, but u have to accept the facts that appeared in front of you... My experiences and observations are enough to tell me everything..

I developed myself in counseling field when I was in secondary school until now. And the counselor from my secondary school is the top ten counselor in Malaysia.. I know my roles, I understand my responsibilities.. I had listerned to many stories from different background of people...From there, indirectly created an opportunity for me to learn and to explore..

I read a short story before, it saying that doctor cures patient's diseases, but they never cure their own" diseases", because they can't... And I am still believing it..

Do not always expect that the road is smooth all the time, and if you do not take any precautions, you might fall when you are walking halfway... I believe i had fell for many times.. its so painful and miserable at the moment that you are trying to continue the endless road..

Y must fall down whenever the road is not smooth?? Why can't I just cross it, then looks back and says, "you want to block me ar, slowly wait la.."

And how if you see a person and the person might fall when he reached the part that I had crossed, would you tell the fella how to cross it?? or just let the fella falls and laughs at the fella??

I don't use any of those.. I will prefer to remove the obstacles and let others to cross it without realising it..

4.05 am...
kenji is out....

Monday, October 26, 2009

moodiness or losing appetite??

Skipped my dinner recently..
Although I am hungry, but I just don't feel like eating =(

Today went to AMpang 9th emperor god's temple..
prayed hard and made few wishes..
Hoping that 9th emperor God will give me spiritual energy to accomplish my missions..

Met with an OLD ANNOYING fella in Ampang Yong Tau Hu restaurant.. Don't know what made him saying that I was challenging him..!! FCUK!!!

Dear 9th Emperor God, must boh yow me... I need the energy..

Sunday, October 25, 2009

RAIN

9th Emperor Birthday..
I met with a heavy rain just now when I was playing football..
Rain dropped and hit my body mercilessly..
I felt the painfulness but I kept running and chasing the ball..

When you are facing difficulties, you have no choice to move forward instead of backward and give up at the end of the day..

Now I understand, my direction, my decision and my goals..
I have been struggling with those issues recently and I couldn't make up my mind and NOW.. I got it...

I will not explain the purposes on what I have done and I don't mind whether people misinterpret my meanings.. And whatever I gonna do, will be the secrets deeply hiding inside my heart forever until the end of the day...AT least, I am qualified to stand in this world with pride

Thursday, October 22, 2009

R.I.P A gong..

人生无常....
希望你一路好走...