Who Guided me?

11.15pm, When all my roomates were in their dreams, I decided to go out to have a night walk..

I supposed to walk around my condo,
with no reasons, I walked out of my condo..

I was thinking of to have a cup of teh tarik in Barakath,
But i had forgotten that the mamak was closed due to haji,

No choice, I kept moving..
I walked pretty slow and fully concentrate on wat i was thinking..

Until....
until I reached Jusco at around 11.45pm..
I don't know why I will reach Jusco
And i didn'trealise that I was in Public bank which is just outside Jusco,
I was thinking, OMG, this time GG le..
The pathway was so darked and no light over there..
And, the worst thing is, I had passed through few wangsa maju dangerous spot areas..
There were few robbery and murderous cases happened in that areas..
Thanks god, you save my life again..

I walked to LRT station as fast as possible and I saw few suspicious fella which I dun care at all at that moment..
I dun really remember which parts I had been through because i was just too concentrate on my mind..

the next I walked to the place where I wait for Utar bus every morning, and I stopped there for a moment and was not dare to move forward and If I did so, I am sure that tomorrow u guys don't need to see me anymore.

I stood there because I heard a song, " the moon represents my heart"..
There were a lots of cars parked over there, this reminded me of the movie, phobia 2..

And yes, I saw someone in between a car when I passed by, And i was not sure whether the "guy" i saw is real human or not, then I decided to reverse and see, and yes, that was a crazy fella, sitting there. When he saw me looking at him, he stood up and wanna chase me, I ran as fast as possible. When I looked back, he was like talking alone and look me move further and further away..

Finally, i back to my condo le..
Erm.. for anyone who wanna scold me for my stupidity, please do not hesitate to take ur phone and call me immediately before it is too late.. Oops, shall not say this.. Should be please call me to wash my brain ba if u have the ability..
And, please dun try this ..COpyrighted..

一个人

一个人想
一个人走
一个人哭
一个人伤心

每一个人
每一个梦
每一分钟
每一次失落

一个人从有心到无心
一首歌从有情到无情
这是我现在的心情
也是我对你执着的感情
一个人从有心到无心
一首歌从有情到无情
这是我现在的心情
也是我对你执着的感情

一个人想
一个人走
一个人哭
一个人伤心

Nightmare..

I still can't forget the fear that I had..
The dream.. Again and again make me feel so unsecure..

where is my courage??
Come back, I need it..

Gone case le..
I don't know how to cure my current condition,
my toe is just a small matter,
but the fear I had.. Just duno how to cure it..

I should try to walk alone at night and deeply relax myself..
Hopefully It could help me..
I need a big hug.. to secure myself from being into a darkness world..

And if, I can't back to my previous self,
then, kenji is dead..
will never come back le..

There is a question where I keep thinking of it,
If the person was there with me in the surgery room,
I think I can gone through the surgery successfully..
But in fact, I should not expect for this..

DEar God, please, give me back my courage, or else, I dun wan to sleep..

A failed surgery

Be prepared to read this..

I went to hospital Kuala Lumpur alone in this afternoon bcoz i am having serious injured on my toe..

I reached there and waited for 30 minutes then only reached my turn.
When doctor checked for several times, she straight wrote a letter and asked me to check for my blood then go for emergency unit..

Seriously at that moment, I got shocked and I felt very scared at that moment.
When i was in the emergency unit, i saw a lot of broke hand or leg fella, and those who juz had accident.. the blood.. everywhere..

I was so scared until i was shivering in a corner.
Almost all the patient had their family and friends accompanying, but me, alone..

At the time I signed the agreement to had surgery, I didn call anyone including my family members.Then the doctor asked, where is ur family members and your friends? I replied that I came alone, then she said, how are you going back later since you gotta undergo an operation, I said that I got no choice but have to take bus later..
Inside the surgery room was so cold and I got to wear those patient's jacket , cap and slipper.. I was so nervous until I forgot everything le..

Now, the scariest part, when everyone was ready, doctor gave me 7 injections on my toe, its so painful until I cried,bite own hand, stuggled and keep moving my foor while the needle was still inside.. Nurse was trying to stop me but I just cant bear with it.. In the end I shouted.. STOP!!! PLS STOP!!!. I cant bear with it anymore..

Then doctor said, ok, if u dun wan to continue, then if anyhting happens, you gotta bear with the responsibility. I replied ok and I stop crying..

No ones know the fear that I had..
It was just so scary..

In the end, I bear with the painfulness myself and took bus back to my condo..

To anyone who read this, please DO TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF...

锻炼@坚持

我要很努力的锻炼自己的体能
因为我要去一个很远的地方
我要亲自走路去...
眼前的痛只是转眼间的痛..
脚痛更要走
累了也要跑
不测退，不投降

更重要的是能够把自己搞得疲倦
一睡到天亮
什么都不用烦

对不起我的脚，我的母指
辛苦了...

一千个，一万个

伤心的kenji有一千个和一万个伤心的理由...haih...

怎么办啊？？
头好痛..
晚上又不可以一个人走，
又没人要陪我谈
该不知如何是好...

problem solver?? PUI!!!!!
nah.. problem maker got gua..

haiz..

为何会这样子？？
好痛苦
幸好有很好的室友和兄弟偶尔开解下我

还是haih...
一切都不一样了....

Who I am??

And again, I pointed out this question to myself...

Again and again...
I can't even define for myself...
what I want?
what I want to see?
What I want to see from others?

If i have done my parts,
then what would be the outcomes ??

The endless war with no answers at all..
what shoud I do??
For now? For next and FOr.....??

Win or Lose??
Please give me supports...
I need the energy to move on...

Zaman Paleolitik until Malaysia hari ini..

Since wei chyi, chiah and bernard went out for 2012,
then Eugene asked me to suggest a place to go,
thus I decided to go back zaman paleolitik..

and our journey begins...
We didn use time machine, instead, we took a special train..

Before we reached zaman paleolitik, we enjoyed the environment around and s^2 for a while ^^


And here we reached zaman paleolitik, neolitik and logam...




Meanwhile, we met with the villagers in zaman paleolitik, but they are very LANSI.. never say hi to us... sa sad.. T.T



Since they are very lansi, so we decided to leave them and continue our journey..

Next is Zaman kegemilangan Melaka.. And at that time, Agama Islam was introduced to Malaysian.. And very lucky, we met with SUltan Melaka and advised him to join Agama Buddha(joking la)...
KEnji: Lu Jangan main-main o... nanti hidup kau susah susah...
GEne : 因果抱抱


And, the war begins...
First of all, Captain alfonso albuquequer came to MElaka with his soldiers and BOM all the small kapal-kapal in Melaka, we were shocked and I decided to kill Him without any hesitation..But Eugene supports him.. swt....

Kenji: you better surrender, so that my name will appear in history.. DO u knw who is christiano ronaldo? So u support manchester united or real madrid??

Gene: You continue fighting ba, i just want to take picture only, wun kacao u 1..

YEs, from Melaka to Penang..
We can't find Fiona in Penang, But we found something..
EUgene was tring to compete with me, but he lost.. Y would I say so??



SEE?? of cause I win la...
PERJANJIAN PANGKOR
But why the table is empty?? suppose to have agreement or tea or smth else right??


Around 1945, the villagers live in a peaceful lives, plucking coconut, and you know la, I amvery helpful 1 ma, So i volunteer myself to help them..



Its so tiring to travel from one place to another places.. We took a rest and SS .. ^^



The miserable incident finally happened, japanese soldiers riding bicycle , came to my country and raped my girls.. so sad.. T.T
They were hiding in a small room and he thought i didn realise, but I found it and burned the room then I cabut lo...



Finally... Merdeka



Throughout the journey, we didn learn anything.. wakakakaka... we just have fun around and kacao those historical heroes...Fun tho..

Sunway Pyramid

Last Monday me,bernard, fiona and xinqi went to sunway pyramid to celebrate fiona's birthday and she is officially 19 d. ^_^
I had learnt what is 大头照.. taught by xinqi.. and she helped me to take a 大头照..



And I tried my camera skill as well..
Here is the best shot ever.. So cool.. freeze..


Due to privacy, thus I am not going to upload the rest of the pictures..
Lastly, wish her happy birthday and all the best...

Another 6 more hours will be Xin qi's birthday d, so here I wish her the earlier happy birthday....

sunnymoon1989.blogspot.com

this is my 3rd Blog,
However, this blog is not only belongs to me,
but it belongs to me and seam mee(moon)..

I am wondering what are we going to post over there..

WOndering...

Wake Up My friends!!!!!

" Wake Up My friends" !!!!
Sign your attendance and LEAVE NOW!!!
Else Withdraw from this subject right NOW!!
zz...
PEople was sleeping at behind, but I was sitting in the front row..

Her voice is a lot better than my alarm.. I straight woke up and staring at her..

Haiz... everyweek also must get scolded by my lecturer.. sad.. T.T

She said " Because of you, that's y malaysia's education FAILED" !!!
OMG, I didn know that I could actually control the quality of education in Malaysia..

Its my faults also la, I was very tired.. REcently didn't sleep well and walked under the rain sumore, same as my moon, but she is actually having high fever right now, hopefully she can get well soon... bless for her..

茶之道



虽然月亮生病了，但我还是被她狠狠的教训了一顿，她不准我再逼到自己太紧..
我明白她的意思，她要我为自己着想,是时候回复以前的我了...'
我不知道我接下来所做的决定是否对于错，让可怜我的老天爷来决定吧..至少我对得起自己也对得起身边的人
一切随缘，听天由命..
可是，我认命，但我不认输...

一杯茶，一个人...

终于再次承受不着压力，再次独自一个人去喝茶...
虽然一个人喝茶淡然无味，但终比呆在家承受压力好很多..

又失去胃口了，所以为了证明我没事，我还是叫了一碟椰江饭..但很好笑，老板说，江鱼仔完了..所以，椰江饭也只能是椰饭..

一口接着一口，很快的就吃完了，虽然没什么感觉，但我很高心，至少没有辜负某些人吧...

闪着电，打着雷， 我刚好坐在树下，一点也不畏惧，因为.......

看来是时候解密了..

月亮，相信大家都很熟悉这个名字也了解她对我的重要性。
换句话说，我并不孤独..
虽然喜欢一个人走，但周围是否有人留意到月亮一直普照着我？？
她的祝福
她的鼓励
她的照顾
是我唯一咬紧牙根，继续走下去...

虽然我知道在现实生活中这些是没可能发生的，
但至少我还可以骗自己好让我有一个继续走下去的尊严 与勇气..
她是我背后的推动力，
默默的支持我...

刚才打雷闪电，我又坐在树下，我毫无畏惧，就是这个原因，因为闪闪的月光照着我...

可惜，为何就是有人要破坏我这么一点点的幻想，为什么就是要打击我...
难道我这一身就注定死在你手？？
没可能...

以前，月亮是一个名词，现在也只能是代词了...

淡淡的茶就像是一杯白开水,清清的，淡淡的..走了...

And again..

This time..
Thanks to ms LEE, my management lecturer..
I don't know what makes her becomes so strict.
I was having 4 hours lecture non-stop with only 3 minutes..
And there were few stupid idiot fcking fella making noise behind the lecture,
Ms LEE was damn pissed and scolded all of us.. This is really Fcking unfair!!!!

Thus, the consequences are, she will not explain all the slides and asked us to study by our own.. Meanwhile, I am currently headache with my assignment because it is extremely difficult..

Right after 12, I bought a piece of bread and rushed to library to comlete my assignment until 5pm.. I was just so stressed until I don't feel like talking or taking any foods.. This is Fcking crazy and I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!