身为一个浪子，走过的路一定不比人少。道路坎坷难行，有直有弯有高有低。有谁的道路没遇过障碍呢？每当遇到障碍又有谁能渡过呢？选择回头？还是前进？当然我会选择前进。当我成功渡过后我很开心，全部人都看着我渡过，可惜我偏体麟伤。肉体的痛不比心里的痛更严重。当然我可以选择用另一条路来渡过，可惜酱做会伤及无辜。经过几许细思量，宁愿承受这痛苦。
我的责任比别人来的更大，所作的决定往往都很了断，可能有人觉的我很绝，很残酷，可是我始终要做出决定。当决定一做，肯定有人受到伤害，他们所承受的痛苦我能了解，但是又有谁想过我的立场？我的责任所在？在我有生一日肯定不让我的朋友受到伤害，但问题也一定要解决。
如果在某些事情需要牺牲我而平息事情，我愿意接受，但是我要每个人都知道即使我输了一场战，可是我却赢得了光彩，赢得了尊严，只少我对自己说过的话负责。知我者为我心犹，不知我者为我心愁。人心难测，总有你不知的一面。
我很自豪的告诉自己：我对得起自己的良心，我尽了我的责任，我付出了代价，我做了该做的决定，我解决了问题所困。
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Saturday, July 19, 2008
A visitor in kampar
18th July 2008, 6:15 pm, my 3 days tour began.This weekend is the only weekend that I free, thus I have decided to go back to my lovely Kampar and visit my friends. Coincidenly, 18th of July was also Sito's birthday.I reached at 9.05pm in kampar bus station and some how I felt that something had changed. I took KINTA bus to newtown and straight away walked to Jing Jing's house to put down my stuffs after I reached. After that, I went to bakery shop and bought a chocolate cake for sito as a present because I did not time to choose a present in KL. I brought the cake and walked to Ghany corner.. I saw Sito but I didn realize that Eliza and Guat shan were sitting beside her, she seems like get shocked when I appeared in front of her. Due to my tiredness and sickness, I did not talk much as what I expected.
My schedule on tat day began from-
1)went to eliza's house to play cho dai tee,complete my report and have a conversation with her housemates.
2) left their house at 4am and walked to apartment, but the door was locked.
3) thus, i went to Ghany corner and have a cup of teh-tarik also I was damn sleepy.
4) after lepak 2 hours in Ghany, then I went to CC to play DOta.
5) Walked around then went back to apartment and took a short rest.
6) enjoyed my breakfast in dim sum restaurant with eliza, guat shan and sito.
7) walked back to apartment to take a short nap and continue my static questions until 7pm.
8) And again went to mamak at 10.30 to meet with my heng tai as well as eliza they all..
9) back apartment and sleep.
10) 9am woke up and prepared to go back KL.
11) called su chet and had a lunch with him at "kam ling" restaurant
12)he accompanied till I board into bus .
10) the end of my journey....
There was a mistake that I made which is I did not plan my schedule properly and miss up a lots of thing.. I think I should not bring along my report because it wasted a lot of my precious time in kampar since the next time i will visit here is jan 2009. Many things are out of my expectations,
My schedule on tat day began from-
1)went to eliza's house to play cho dai tee,complete my report and have a conversation with her housemates.
2) left their house at 4am and walked to apartment, but the door was locked.
3) thus, i went to Ghany corner and have a cup of teh-tarik also I was damn sleepy.
4) after lepak 2 hours in Ghany, then I went to CC to play DOta.
5) Walked around then went back to apartment and took a short rest.
6) enjoyed my breakfast in dim sum restaurant with eliza, guat shan and sito.
7) walked back to apartment to take a short nap and continue my static questions until 7pm.
8) And again went to mamak at 10.30 to meet with my heng tai as well as eliza they all..
9) back apartment and sleep.
10) 9am woke up and prepared to go back KL.
11) called su chet and had a lunch with him at "kam ling" restaurant
12)he accompanied till I board into bus .
10) the end of my journey....
There was a mistake that I made which is I did not plan my schedule properly and miss up a lots of thing.. I think I should not bring along my report because it wasted a lot of my precious time in kampar since the next time i will visit here is jan 2009. Many things are out of my expectations,
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Style!= Conclusion
1st Case
This week was the unusual week that had made some changes in my class. Previously my class have 18 students, the least in SETAPAK campus, however, 5 of them going to USM n now only left 13 students including my course rep.. Thus, I have been promoted to be a course rep immediately. 5 of them were my assignment partner, so now I have to complete the 3 assignments by myself.. Well, I don’t know I could make it or not and I am now really gambling with my courseworks.. Conclusion= ALONE..
2nd Case
Last Thursday I was having my dinner with my heng tai and also the 1st time we had dinner 2gether in Wangsa Maju.. While we were waiting for the lift....
Chiah : This few weeks can’t go n visit ping xin
Chyi: but at least u two meet with each other very often ma. My 1 lagi teruk, dun even hv time to go Kampar n visit my girlfren.
Chiah: she only comes for 1 or 2 hours, but once u go back is 1 or 2days wo..
Chyi: Although i stay there for 2 days, but we only have few hours to meet each other..
Kenji: Super SWT drop!!! Walao, like this also can argue.. Dun u two realize that ur current lives is so blissful but you can’t find the blissfulness on it?? SEE, SINGLE might be a problem, DOUBLE is trouble right??
Chiah : next time when we go back Kampar then we(me n chiah) stay in same room la because most of the time I will go and find Ping Xin..
Kenji: No matter I am staying in sharing room or single room, the room is always empty, only me and my son will be in the room...
End.... Conclusion= ALONE
3rd case
Yesterday, we went to watch WANTED in KLCC. My class ended at 4pm, thus they all have to wait for me in KLCC.. I took UTAR bus alone and met with my hengtai plus yik wai at LRT station.. I was extremely tired because at the day before I went to watch football( Spain vs Russia) and my class started at 8am morning... When we were walking to the cinema and walked out from form the cinema, I was always the one who walked in front alone... That’s Y Jun called me LEADER...
Conclusion= ALONE..
From what I have discussed with my friends, they said that this is my style and I will never walk alone.. Well, I believe it because I will walk through the end of my life with my friends....
A little bit crazy on 2day, so I have decided to make some tattoo on my arm..
zoom it
Friday, June 13, 2008
The days of not being a lang zi
As usual, I prefer to walk alone in everywhere. today is the 6th days for me of not being a lang zi. Most of the time I stay close with my Kampar friends in FES, however not all the time we will have a chance to meet each others because I am taking different course. Looking everywhere, observing every action, thinking nonsense theory and making own conclusion. This is what I am doing since secondary school until now. I wonder if one day I could read wat exactly people thinking.. Maybe I should study psychology after all. Well recently my coursemates have created a gang which is called S.A.D, quoted from the word sad which stands for SINGLE,AVAILABLE,DESPERATE.. I cannot be the committees as well as members because I am not qualified, thus I have been assigned as an academic advisor..
Last Thursday I went to KLCC to watch The Hulk with my heng tai, I travelled to KLCC alone and wait for them over there due to communication break down between me and wei chyi, I went to a place to take a rest while enjoying my ROTI BOY which is costs RM1.80. Suddenly, there were a group of Japanese guys carrying with a lot of stuffs and sit beside me, they talked Japanese+ Malays with me which I dun understand at all, so I juz can reply YES YES YES... its so funny. Every morning I will wake up at 6am and depart from my condo at6.50am to nearby bus station to wait for UTAR bus. The distance from my condo to the bus station is roughly 300 metres. The feeling of walking in the early morning is just nice, I can see people is starting to work, preparing to open their restaurant or shops. This is then bring a message to me that “ today is a good day for me, I should appreciate it and prepare for the challenges of the day”.. Since I have to face with my stressful life in setapak,then Y dun I face it plus a little bit entertainment??
My assignment partner told me that I am very decisive and responsible when doing assignment, however, she told me that what she wants in a team is perfect..I totally speechless at that moment.. I usually will chat with my coursemates when we were doing tutorials in library. They asked me whether I am still single, then I replied YES, they said those guys which are humorous, friendly usually still single because they will have a lot of friends and prefer to stay close with friends. I took quite a period of time to think about what they had said because this is quite true also from what I have seen.
I am thinking that
1- Is that I prefer to stay close with my friends forever?
2- In the other words, Lang zi is more suitable for me?
3- I can only have best friends and nothing more than that?
4- Am I cheating myself ?
If the answers are YES, then I think I will know what am I going to be in the next 5 years..Well maybe I will never get the answers for my own questions..
I will have programming and Electrical eng. Tests in next week, so I shall study hard now in order to achieve my target.
Last Thursday I went to KLCC to watch The Hulk with my heng tai, I travelled to KLCC alone and wait for them over there due to communication break down between me and wei chyi, I went to a place to take a rest while enjoying my ROTI BOY which is costs RM1.80. Suddenly, there were a group of Japanese guys carrying with a lot of stuffs and sit beside me, they talked Japanese+ Malays with me which I dun understand at all, so I juz can reply YES YES YES... its so funny. Every morning I will wake up at 6am and depart from my condo at6.50am to nearby bus station to wait for UTAR bus. The distance from my condo to the bus station is roughly 300 metres. The feeling of walking in the early morning is just nice, I can see people is starting to work, preparing to open their restaurant or shops. This is then bring a message to me that “ today is a good day for me, I should appreciate it and prepare for the challenges of the day”.. Since I have to face with my stressful life in setapak,then Y dun I face it plus a little bit entertainment??
My assignment partner told me that I am very decisive and responsible when doing assignment, however, she told me that what she wants in a team is perfect..I totally speechless at that moment.. I usually will chat with my coursemates when we were doing tutorials in library. They asked me whether I am still single, then I replied YES, they said those guys which are humorous, friendly usually still single because they will have a lot of friends and prefer to stay close with friends. I took quite a period of time to think about what they had said because this is quite true also from what I have seen.
I am thinking that
1- Is that I prefer to stay close with my friends forever?
2- In the other words, Lang zi is more suitable for me?
3- I can only have best friends and nothing more than that?
4- Am I cheating myself ?
If the answers are YES, then I think I will know what am I going to be in the next 5 years..Well maybe I will never get the answers for my own questions..
I will have programming and Electrical eng. Tests in next week, so I shall study hard now in order to achieve my target.
Monday, June 9, 2008
Gudbye to qin chang lang zi
Kue Kheng Zie,IC number:890318-0X-XXXX declare that Starts from 8th of June onwards, I am not qin chang lang zi anymore due to certain reasons.
regards,
kenji
(M&MY1S1)
regards,
kenji
(M&MY1S1)
Friday, June 6, 2008
FES=Faculty of Extremely Stress
7 subjects ,6*2 credit hours+ 3 credit hours... This is wat M&M students muz gone through in the first semester.. Every morning six o'clock wake up, then go to campus, after suffering for 11 hours , then 6pm go back to house, bath+ wash clothes, eat , study and sleep. This is wat I do everyday.. Is it boring?? The answer is YES!!! It is...and tiring as well. All the subjects are damn difficult, I can't even understand wat the lecturer teaching about, need to take a lot of time to digest it.. Plus, my material's lecturer is from kazastan, her slang is damn different, I can't even hear wat she is talking about, but her wearing style is quite sexy I think.. STRESS, STRESS , STRESS. Every week is like study week for me, once I free, then muz hold a book and study until my eyes totally close. I duno how far I still can go through, but I realize that I haven't fully develop my own potential and strenght, and I hope that after gone through all of the obstacles, I can be the "Last Man Standing"..
Nowadays, I am an assistant course rep, Yik Wai , eugene, hong yee are course rep, kheng hooi is assistant course rep and lastly ning xin is class rep.. We feel like Kampar first batch foundation student is conquering FES.. Damn proud of it.. I told myself that After 1st semester, I muz enjoy til"kao kao" to balance my mind, else confirm going to tanjung rambutan. I duno how comes my housemates are so free except me, haiz, inequity....Nowadays my frens seldom contact me d, maybe both of us are rather busy, even when I received the calls also from my coursemates and asking about the class's schedule... I feel like it could be nice if I am now walking in Westlake Alone, refresh my mind, breath in the fresh air, enjoy myself of being alone at night, watching the moon, sing a song, talk to the moon and laugh to myself, if I could..the end...Stressssss.
S.I.P
Nowadays, I am an assistant course rep, Yik Wai , eugene, hong yee are course rep, kheng hooi is assistant course rep and lastly ning xin is class rep.. We feel like Kampar first batch foundation student is conquering FES.. Damn proud of it.. I told myself that After 1st semester, I muz enjoy til"kao kao" to balance my mind, else confirm going to tanjung rambutan. I duno how comes my housemates are so free except me, haiz, inequity....Nowadays my frens seldom contact me d, maybe both of us are rather busy, even when I received the calls also from my coursemates and asking about the class's schedule... I feel like it could be nice if I am now walking in Westlake Alone, refresh my mind, breath in the fresh air, enjoy myself of being alone at night, watching the moon, sing a song, talk to the moon and laugh to myself, if I could..the end...Stressssss.
Friday, May 30, 2008
Setapak Campus
Faculty of engineering and science located in setapak, few kilometres from wangsa maju. Here got six blocks if i am not mistaken . SA block is for general office, finance of department,ICTC and different department of engineering and science courses. SB block is library, it is quite crowded because the area is quite small and full of bookshelf. SC block is canteen and DSA. The canteen is damn small and it is like the canteen in a prison, long rectangular table with the chairs surrounding on it.Above the canteen is DSA. SD n SE blocks are tutorial room and lab, it seems like outdated version of lab, totally disqualified compared with Kampar campus. Another block we call it DK block which is lecture classes and it can fit roughly 100 students. I have mentioned that the students over here do not wear the student ID all the time . Among 100 % of students only 2% of the students wear it and the 2% of the students are from foundation in Kampar campus. 
M&M Y1S1
I am the only one who is taking M&M from Kampar campus and I think I am the youngest as well among my classmates. My class only has 20 students and only one of them is girl. I think I hv been takdirkan to be single forever since I am prodigal of love. Another advantage is I can fully concentrate on my studies to achieve my goals. On my 1st lecture in FES, I learned C++ programming language and its slightly different than wat i had learned before and thanks god I was the 1st who completed all the practical questions. Unfortunately, i was having a serious sore throat and caused the blood coming out , damn disgusting.. I stayed in the campus until 7pm bcoz i had to attend a peer mentor meeting. During the meeting, me , chiah and chyi decided to be quit and we would rather to become mentee..However, after we discussed for few hours , then we made another dicision which is we quit from all the activities because we don’t like the way they solve the problem and their style.. I met a senior from biomedical science and she is currently Y3S2 which means she will graduate soon. Her name is EIMON and she is damn open minded and we can chat anything as fun as we could. As conclusion, although the subjects are ten times difficult than foundation, but I will use whole energy to achieve the best results as I could..
library
Block A
Cafeteria
ICTC
M&M Y1S1
I am the only one who is taking M&M from Kampar campus and I think I am the youngest as well among my classmates. My class only has 20 students and only one of them is girl. I think I hv been takdirkan to be single forever since I am prodigal of love. Another advantage is I can fully concentrate on my studies to achieve my goals. On my 1st lecture in FES, I learned C++ programming language and its slightly different than wat i had learned before and thanks god I was the 1st who completed all the practical questions. Unfortunately, i was having a serious sore throat and caused the blood coming out , damn disgusting.. I stayed in the campus until 7pm bcoz i had to attend a peer mentor meeting. During the meeting, me , chiah and chyi decided to be quit and we would rather to become mentee..However, after we discussed for few hours , then we made another dicision which is we quit from all the activities because we don’t like the way they solve the problem and their style.. I met a senior from biomedical science and she is currently Y3S2 which means she will graduate soon. Her name is EIMON and she is damn open minded and we can chat anything as fun as we could. As conclusion, although the subjects are ten times difficult than foundation, but I will use whole energy to achieve the best results as I could..
Eimon
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