the kenji that u know...

wahahahahahahaha..

笑一笑，什么都没烦恼

8th of march right after 6.25pm.
i felt so hungry,
and i realised that
I began my new path.

though i had been down for almost 2 weeks.
I woke up le..

I have learnt to appreciate myself.
The things that I had done.
The effort that I had put in everything.

I love my friends,
I love my family,
I love my housemates,
I love my neighbour,
I love my roommate(s),
I love my hengtai s(juz added a new one).
I love everything.
I love my coursemates.

Once u call me hengtai, friend or at least my name,
I am willing to help as if anyone needs my assistance.

I am not regret for what I have done..
I would rather spill out everything and no matter people like it or not
but yet i am proud to say at least i didn wear a mask and talking with you.

I will fulfill my promises.

I wanna see all my friends graduate with pride.
I wanna to see my friends living in a healthy and happy atmosphere.
I wanna enjoy every moment with my friends.

I will not do any silly stuffs,
and if i am down,
pls cheer me up by simply giving me a hug or maybe sing a song for me.

A hug means a blessing,
I wanna hug all of my friends.

This is what I am..
I am officially a lang zi
I did travel to unknown places alone.
to explore
to release myself
to observe the surroundings
to enjoy the culture
to love the people

Everytime when i travel am travelling,
I do take risk.
and if anything happens to me,
I am not regret
at least i had done my parts as a fren with pride,
life is about enjoying
if you don't enjoy what you are,
what for to live in this world.

A very good example that I would like to share.
Hey kenji, still single ar?
No life la you..
TMD, what for i wanna find a gf now?
The purpose that u find a gf is to enjoy ur life right?
Since I am enjoying, then wat for I wanna find a gf leh?
U wun feel desperate??
OMg, If i am desperate, then I already found la,
need to wait till now meh... =.=
This is wat I chat with my old fren.

Since this sem I have a subject so called polymer science,
then my lecturer talking about the poplulation in malaysia.
he said, chinese and indian dun like to have many kids,
then i replied,
sir, thanks to your rubber
and caused people dun like to have kids.,
at that moment
everyone got stunned
and gave me an innocent look,
when I slowly turned my eyes to look at my lecturer,
he was totally speechless..

kenji ar kenji,
I know you are very energetic since you just woke up,
but don't bully lecturer ma..

Today I got back my ceramics test paper..
erm, before having the test, I can't study well because I was down,
so I was lying down on my bed
and i was so stressed while solving the questions
but yet,
I scored 48/50,will be converted to 15.
swt.. i want full marks T.T

Is this the kenji that you know??
Good luck for those who having tests

My 2nd life..

REborn..
Dear my friends..
I will not do any silly stuffs from now onwards. ISWEAR!!!!!!!

I AM BACK!!!!
Thanks to my friends' support..

思念

不知不觉早已十年了
我一出生
只能见到我的公公和外婆

公公在十二年前离开了我
当时的我只是二年级
外婆在十年前离开了我
当时只是四年级

四年级开始
我已没机会看见公公，婆婆，外婆和外公

从小
在槟城的时候
我们一群小孩子每次玩耍回来都一定被外婆骂
吃东西时也一样
回忆起当年小时候
真的很开心
无忧无虑的

我的外婆很辛劳
她每一刻都要做东西
不然会很不习惯

下午的时候
我会陪他看印度戏
她每一次都看到打瞌睡
然后我就会笑他

晚上的时候
她会做在她的角落看报纸
然后也会在那儿打瞌睡

外婆煮的食物很好吃
尤其是她裹得粽子
很香

可惜
我再也没机会尝试到了

她很喜欢讲故事
尤其是马来西亚的故事
如日本军，513等等
我很喜欢听

我已不记得最后停她说故事是几时了
也没机会了

记得外婆去世的那天
第一次看到妈妈哭了
我也不知该怎么办
当时还小
什么到不知道
只是知道外婆离开了

家有一老
如有一宝

真希望她还活着
看着我慢慢的长大
踏入这个社会
我很想告诉她，我很乖
我有努力的书
将来一定会成功

很想把我两年后的四方帽送给她
她一定会高兴的哭了

岁月不留人
我已长大了
一个胖嘟嘟的小孩
如今已是一个顶天立地的少年
很惭愧
我再也没有机会孝顺您老人家了

我知道
她在天之灵都无时无刻的保佑我
虽然最近的我很不会爱惜自己

十年了
我的父母也老了
一年一年看着照片
他们真的老了

为了我这个不孝儿
奔波劳累
爸爸的头发都变得苍白了
我真是不孝
那么大了
还要父母担心

我的心很痛
为何我只能看着他们一年比一年的老
却什么也做不到

哥哥做工了
很孝顺
姐姐也是
除了我

我每次回家除了会和妈妈顶嘴
过后什么都不会
爸爸什么是都为我做
任劳任怨的

今天是姐姐的生日
我连拿起手机发个简单的讯息也没有勇气

明天是外婆的死祭
真的很想揍自己一顿
狠狠地，够够力的

外婆，
你的孙很乖
很听话
只是有点固执
你要保佑他
让他好好的做人
我爱你外婆

我与流浪汉的六个小时（下）感想篇

或许我迷失了自己
也找不回原本的我

最近的日子都是得过且过
走一步，看一步

自从上一次的假期
我开始了我的流浪生活

我昨天离开
也是不希望这里发生命案
也让自己来一个解脱

如果你们问我会怕吗？
答案是会
因为我并不是所谓的超人

在整个漫长的夜里
我饱受了折磨
时间过得很慢
身体也变得很虚弱
尤其是今天

我自问
既然我克服不了
那么我是否可以忘记一切
过后给自己一个从生的机会？

比起那些流浪汉
我幸福的多

我为以前的我做了一个葬礼
告别一些我克服不了的事情
至少我会好过得些

为以前的我哀悼一分钟吧

我目前想要做的是克服我的忧郁症
什么都不再想
这也是我答应月亮的事情

以前我所做过的一切
不论是好是坏
让它成为不灭的神话吧

这是我唯一能走得路
唯一的
希望你们会祝福我
让我好好走下去

今早回来时
照镜子
根本是一个乞丐
苏乞儿

由于太累
一整天迷迷糊糊的
吐了两次在学校
会来睡了四个小时
现在只是少少头昏
可能是还没吃吧

在KLIA的火车上，我和我的包包霸占了四个位子

抵达kl central的时间，看着我的表，一秒一秒地过

这一排过去都睡满了人，还有地上也是

我的风水位


希望我会有一个很好的开始

我与流浪汉的六个小时

我提到我选择短暂的离开
却没想到
差点搭上一个不归路

上完课后
我去了最美也最浪漫的公园
去休息

当我回来时
我错过了一辆火车
当我到kl central时
已经是十二点了
什么都没了

我很冷静
找了一个角落准备休息
这时
警察来了
查我的身份证
过后赶我出去
原因是担心我会偷东西
真的他妈的

我走出去
却看到另一个世界
一群了流浪汉
一排排的睡着
我心想
完了

我走出去公路
刚开始是沿着边走
因为没车
我沿着中间线走
看着天空的星星和月亮
很想躺在马路上
吹着寒冷的风

走了不久
疲倦了
我走回去
放下了我的包包
就躺着和那班流浪汉一起睡
我几乎已忘了自己

我拿起了手机
尝试联络我的朋友
但他们都应该睡着了

躺着躺着
我很想睡
但不敢
担心个人的安全
万一任何一个疯子拿刀刺下去
我会很痛

我已受够了
觉得已得到足够的惩罚了
我今日流浪街头
他日必成状元

如果你们看到我和那班流浪汉一起睡
你们认得我吗？
敢认我是你们的朋友吗？

睡了不久
被一班人叫醒
原来有人要喷蚊油
又被赶

haiz...

我不信kl这样大
没有一个地方容不下我

当时真的很冷
肚子很痛
真的不该如何是好
我只是一直去厕所洗脸

精神上真的是崩溃了
忧郁症又发作了

刚刚到家冲好凉
准备去学校

累到死掉了

打败战

终于打败战了
我始终过不了自己的那一关

我了解自己本身情绪很低落，
尝试去控制
始终没办法

昨晚我根本没办法读书
很烦
对于周遭的声音更是讨厌
几乎是崩溃

室友出去时
我走进了房间躺着
数着一颗颗的眼泪
我知道
我已遇到了人身最大的挑战

或许这种情绪很难说出口
选择了沉默

万一我熬不过去的话
我想
这样就一世人了吧

决定了，明天离开

我很想问
我打败战了
你们高兴吗？

你们会帮我吗？

^&*())(*&

I woke up at 3am
And now is 3.40 and duno since when i fell in sleep...
WHile i remember was I was studying b4 i accidentally fell in sleep..

Weather very cold....
It forces me to wear my jacket.
I went down to walk for a round..
the air is so refreshing.

Had my polymer test yesterday,
and preparing my ceramics test on 2moro..
I duno which part to study for my ceramics,
tonnes of theories, aiks....

Then yesterday damn TL,
after my polymer test,
I questioned one of my groupmates regarding the pictures that he editted..
1st of all, I didn ask him to edit, i passed the task to another fella, but he is so hardworking and wanna show his pro-ness, thus he go and edit.. nvm.. I appreciate his initiative.. but he editted wrongly..

2ndly, since he did wrong already, then I sent an email to him, but he didn't reply, so i was wondering what happened to this poor little fella.. SO I asked him, why u go and edit the wrong 1? he straight replied with his fucking face," edit wrongly cannot ar"??? CAN, why cannot??Since U edit wrong edi, pls make sure u CAN fail the subject as well la.. Y cannot??

When he shouted to me, the rest was looking at me, I told myself, better dun scold him back or else I scare I can't control myself, so I just walked away and told others, wat attitude he has...

In hokkien" Qiang jiu hal, mai geh qiang ma" aiks.. pengsan.. sumore Fucked me for wat?? Hey, U were f-king ur course rep you know... Do you know who is him or not?? If u wanna chanllenge him, do you prepare well before u die??

I am trying to be good with you, but your attitude indirectly told me that I SHOULD NOT respect you. If i am still the previous self, I think world war 3 began d lo...

should stop now seriously, else not enough time to study d.